A Letter to My Future Self (And pssst! Some Changes Are Coming!)

Dear Future Self,

   Maybe you forgot about this letter for a long time, but you've just found it, have no idea what you said and want to get some words of wisdom from your former self. Or maybe you're just reminiscing about the past and want to laugh at your teenage years. 

   Either way, it's me. *ahem*, sorry, you. I don't know exactly where you are right now or how old you are, but I hope and pray that you're doing well. By well, I don't necessarily mean you're happy, I just hope you're full of joy. The difference between the two is that happiness can be temporary, but joy is a feeling that lasts. A feeling you feel deep down inside that reminds you of what living really is. 

   I hope and pray that you're living the life God wants you to; and that you're a good person, not by some self definition you've given to being a "good person," but by God's definition. Because I've always hoped to be successful in the eyes of God, not necessarily of man. Remember, do good, be kind, and remember to empathize with those who need it most. 

  Right now, I'm just climbing my way through the steep hills and rocky canyons of high school. That sounds a little over-dramatic, I suppose, but I'm just taking it day by day, with no definitive goal in mind. 

  Maybe at this point you're married? Maybe with a few kids? Or maybe you're career focused right now. If being career focused is your only goal right now, I encourage you to find another one. Because, I know money is something you need, but it's a need that's constant. It's kind of a bottomless pit. Don't spend so much time focusing on your career that you lose sight of the people around you. Don't spend so much time focusing on your career that you lose sight of the goal. God's goal. Because, I'm not sure what that is right now, but I'd hope you know what He wants from you wherever you are. 

  Most of all, remember the words you thought so long ago, "Love people. Because that's the only thing that truly matters in this world. Loving God and loving people." 

  I sincerely hope you're doing well, Kelsey. Wherever you are, whatever you're doing, remember God loves you. Remember He only wants what's best for you. And no matter what you go through, His joy is your strength. 

           Stay grounded. Stay in His word.
         Your Fifteen-Year-Old Self

                                       Have a great day everyone!
                                       Kelsey :)

P.s. This blog is going to be undergoing some changes again. Hopefully I'll have more to share about those changes soon, but I'm still workin' out the details, ya know? ;)

Also, this might become a weekly thing. I'll write a letter to someone each week. I don't know who yet, but someone. :)


What if We Just Looked Up From Our Smart Phones, Hmm?

Hello there, beautiful people!

     I have this problem. And I hate to complain, but I just wondered if my problem annoys as many people as it does me. Are you ready for it?

Are you really ready?

Here it goes...

One of my biggest problems with our technologically advanced society is that I feel like I can't have a decent conversation anymore.

   How many amens can I get right now? Because this isn't just a joke, I feel as though it's a serious problem. 

   For some reason, when God was thinking up my genetic makeup, he decided to throw in a little character quality there that is really annoyed by this issue. I love having deep, heart-to-heart talks. 
   I think deep down, we all like having these conversations. The kind that encourage you, allow you to cry with others, and allow you to connect with people on a level that technology can't reach. Because regardless of how fancy they make a smartphone, or how wonderful video chat becomes, there is nothing like having a face-to-face, heart-to-heart, real conversation with someone.

  Because we're either talking via Facebook or Twitter, or we're texting eachother; or worse we're talking, but the conversation turns into a lot of mhms and yups while we're staring down at the handheld device in front of us. 

  I don't want to be rude, but when I'm having a conversation with you, I want your full attention. I want to know you're hearing and understanding every single word I'm saying. Because when I'm talking, and you're staring down at your phone, I feel like I'm talking to a brick wall.

 In a world full of Facebook and Twitter and Instagram (all of which I have, so I'm not bashing these in any way), we need to take a step back and look at the people in front of us. 

  And I'm not just saying that people do this to me, I'm fully guilty of focusing on a laptop, or a tablet, or a smart phone rather than the person I'm talking to. But I don't want to do that anymore. None of us should want to do that anymore. Because it almost cheapens the conversation.

  Imagine it like this, you're praying. To God. The God of all of the earth. The One who created the stars, and the heavens, and dandelion dust. Now imagine you're sharing your deepest most intense, raw feelings with Him. Imagine you're pouring your heart and soul out to Him on a platter, and leaving it all out there. Now imagine he says, "Mhm," as He's staring down at His smart phone. You try to speak again, but he says, "Hold on, lemme just send this text to Gabriel real quick, Lolzzz he's totes hilarious!" 

How would that make you feel?

It's an outrageous example, I know, and our God would never do this, but sharing your feelings is hard, especially to another person. When you're talking to someone, and sharing your deepest feelings and fears with them, don't you want their full attention? Don't you want nods of understanding, and that connection that can only be found in the deepest eye contact met with the deepest feelings?

Now imagine something else.

Imagine you're talking to someone, and they're sharing with you. Imagine they don't know anything about Christ or redemption or the Cross, and you're staring at your smart phone rather than listening to their cry for help. How would that feel? How would it feel to miss the chance to help guide a broken heart to the greatest source of healing that there is? 

I'm not saying these are everyday occurrences, but it's definitely frustrating to try and talk to someone when they're distracted by the internet, or texting, or a phone call even!

So I'm going to try a thirty day challenge. For thirty days, every time someone speaks to me, for any reason at all, I'm going to do my best to avert my attention solely at them, regardless of what I'm doing. Because the human connection is more important than anything the internet has to offer, trust me. 

So I hope you have a fabulous day!
Kelsey :)


NaNoWriMo 2014: It's Almost Heeeere!

Hello there, beautiful people!

   Amidst all of the newness that this school year seems to have, NaNoWriMo seems to be coming upon us much faster than I had originally thought. It starts in eight days! Crazy!

  I'm so excited this year to be participating again, although I did go back and forth a whole lot about it. I wasn't sure whether I really wanted to do it again, because I wasn't sure if I wanted to taste failure again. (Me? Negative? NEVER!) Because for the past few years of doing NaNoWriMo, I haven't exactly succeeded at getting to my 50,000 word count, but I'm determined to try. Because not only am I stubborn, I'm extremely motivated to get it finished this year. Just because I want to look that 50,000 word count in the eye and go, "Beat ya!" 

                                      Who else is doing NaNo this year?
                                     Kelsey :)


Something Important

Hello there, beautiful people!

    It's been awhile hasn't it? Well, I've been good. Just living mostly. Life seems to be moving quicker than I ever thought it would. I mean, we're almost done with October! That seems a little crazy.

   In reading my Bible, I've noticed one thing that's repeated quite a lot. I think we've all heard it before, and we all know it in the back of our minds, but we don't always live it.
   What am I talking about? I'm talking about LOVE.

       I'm talking about the parts where it says to love one another. I think a lot of us believe that when this is said, it's all about that sweet feeling we get in the pit of our stomach just by looking at someone we care about. That's all fine and dandy and all, but I don't think that's what our Lord was talking about when He said this.

     I truly believe He's talking about love as a verb. Love as an action. The unconditional love we're all still trying to comprehend, because it's such a contrary concept to what we've believed or been told all of our lives. God wants us to love each other as Jesus loved during His time on this little earth of ours. 
   To love regardless of how we're being treated, regardless of what we're getting out of it, and regardless of who the recipient is. We're called to love everyone, not a fraction of society that we deem worthy of our love. Because isn't that how He loved and loves us? 
   Jesus loved the lowliest of the low, because that's His character. Because regardless of what the latest societal belief is, He loves the unlovable. This is how we're supposed to love. This is how we're told to love. This is what He wants from us.

   But shouldn't we want it too? Shouldn't we want to love everyone too? Regardless of what we're getting out of it? 

   We're not supposed to pick and choose who we love. We're supposed to love everyone. Collectively. As a whole. We're supposed to love them with our actions. Because I've found that sometimes you can say, "I love you," 647,000,000 times, but if you're not showing it, the person you claim to love isn't getting the message.

  This has really been on my heart for the past few days, and I felt the need to share. Friends, love others. Because not only, as humans, do we need love, but we need to give it. Love has been so cheapened by the stereotypes it's been given. As if it's just some fairytale thing that can be tossed around like some sort of football. No, love is the basis of all. Because if we tear away money, fame, power... what do we have left? What's left to crave? What's left to thrive off of? Love. That's it. That's the answer. Because God is love, and if God is the answer, then it's only fitting to say that love is the answer. 

                                           Have a wonderful night!
                                                 Kelsey :)



A New Haircut, Bad Quality Pictures, and Spiderman

Hello there, beautiful people!

   It's a gorgeous October day here in New England and I felt the need to post. Not necessarily about the day, but just about something. 

   First off, isn't Fall just gorgeous? Fall in New England is my favorite!  The colors, the smells, the chills.. It's amazing!

      The picture above is from last fall, 364 days ago actually :) The colors weren't completely change yet, but it was definitely beautiful!

    I got a hair cut yesterday. I seem to be getting those more frequently lately. I'm always into changing my hair for some reason.

      The picture quality is pretty bad, because I used my tablet's camera (which is very low quality) instead of my camera, but it gives you the idea of what my hair looks like. It's pretty short. Also, I make really creepy faces in pictures, just sayin'. 

      My Mom was laughing at me on Sunday, because I needed a new toothbrush and I picked the pack of Marvel Superhero toothbrushes at the store. So now I have a spiderman toothbrush that's intended for seven year old boys. Oh well... 

      Fall is bringing in a lot of changes. And not just in the colors of the leaves. Life is changing constantly, and sometimes I feel like it's all going by so fast, but other times I feel like it's in this slow motion and I can enjoy each and every little moment. I guess life speeds up the older you get... or so I've been told. Let's hope it doesn't. Because I want to live a little more in this moment before we jump to the next.

                                         Kelsey :)

P.s. I'm sorry this post is kind of randomized, but I'll try to have something a little more intriguing next time, I promise :)


NaNoWriMo: Year Four

Hello there, beautiful people!

 I've decided that I'm going to take a crack at NaNoWriMo. Again. I've done it the past three years with no success in finishing my word count, but I'm gonna try again. Because if I don't even try, I won't have the chance to succeed, right? Right!

 For those of you who don't know (heck, even do know!) what NaNoWriMo is, I'll explain (or give you a refresher). 

 NaNoWriMo is a one month challenge in the month of November. NaNoWriMo is a shortened version of, National Novel Writing Month. Your goal is basically to write a 50,000 word book in the month of November. It starts October 31st at midnight (so basically, November 1st), and ends November 30th at midnight. The 50,000 word count goal gets averaged out to about 1,667 words per day. It's a lot of writing. 

 Not only is NaNoWriMo a personal challenge, but you can connect with other people who are doing it inside, and outside, of your area. It's good to have a support system cheering you on throughout the month. 

                  I'm hoping to reach my word count goal this year. Fingers crossed! 

                                      Who else is doing NaNoWriMo this year?


                                                  Kelsey :)



I'm Learning a Lot and Loving It

Hello there, beautiful people!

As most of you know, I started eleventh grade this year. Junior year of high school, whoa man! :) 

School has been amazing. Most years I don't say that. I've always liked school, heck even really liked it, but I have had trouble over the past few years with getting into what I'm doing.

But this year is different. Because I'm learning a ton. If I were asked to pick a favorite subject, I don't think I could because I just love them all! Physics, geometry, history, english, Bible, Spanish, Art! I love it all! I feel like I'm so into learning new information lately. I just want to learn everything I can about anything I can. 

More importantly than just school this year, I'm learning a lot about God, who He is, and what He wants for me. I don't have any definitive idea about what He wants from me yet, but I'm learning. And it's awesome!!

                                                  Kelsey :)